The boys are enjoying having the summer off, they are having a blast. I think we are going tomorrow with my mom & nephew to go bowling. They didn't get to go last time we went because my nephew was sick. The boys have fun bowling, we don't really care how good we do just as long as we have fun.
Amy is doing good on her meal planning again, you know there for awhile I was talking about her doing the nutri system program, well she is doing it again & she has lost 16 pounds in three weeks. She is determined to get to her goal weight of 150. She was 160 when we started dating but after being married to me for ten years & having three kids she has gained a little weight, which I don't care, she is beautiful to me no matter what she weighs.
I need to lose weight, I have gained some weight over the years & now being diabetic it would really help for me to lose some weight. I was 240 when Amy & I got married now I am at 280 so if I could lose about 40 pounds, I just don't have the determination that Amy has. She sets her mind to something & she is going to do it one way or another.
Well my gastro doctor has put me on a new medication for intestine cramping, I take them three times a day. What I like about them is it works by relaxing the nerves so I am hoping that it will help with my anxiety attacks.
I took Trystan & Donavon to the dentist yesterday for their checkup & at first it was just me & a few other people, but by the time the boys were done the waiting room was packed. I was nervous as could be & I was ready to get out of there. It got to were I was wanting to burn myself. When I feel out of control that is when I want to burn myself, I guess to feel like I am in control of the pain.
I was able not to do it, because one I was out in public & two I knew it wouldn't really help solve anything but the desire to do it was really strong, I am afraid I may get the desire to do it & not be able to stop myself then what will Amy do. She is understanding & I know she worries about me but she has told me she can't have the boys around me if I am going to be hurting myself.
Esp. around Trystan seeing how he is Bi polar also & he doesn't need that idea in his head. I don't want to be the reason he would start hurting himself because he saw his daddy doing it.
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